Lazy Mode;

Gororn goronnr~..

Konnichiwa... As salam..

Ahhhh.. Right now, I'm really in lazy mode.... I'm quiet depressed too as my exam doesn't over yet.... nggah.....

Aiyaakkk,,, I don't want to study.....I just want to stay infront this pc and just watching Luffy and his nakama wandering through the Grand Line... Gyahahahahaa... I think that my head had lost it's screw since I'm addicted to One Piece's anime... Hahahhaha

Once, this anime was aired before at NTV7's channel, but that time I'm not giving my attention that time as I don't understand the story at all .. tehee..

Hyaaa.... actually i'm really bored, going to school everyday, and those exam..... nggahhhh~!!! it stressful ya know..?!!! this Monday, i've Arabic[PAPER II] and Science Test. On the next day, I'll have Economic and Arabic[PAPER I]... And the last day is Principles of Accounting [PAPER I]..... Tasuketeeeee~~~!!!!!

The past Principles of Accounting [PAPER II], I done nothing logical answer (anoo... maybe part of it).. Haisshh, I hope that at least I'll pass the exam. And I've got to study for the exam, but I don't want to~!!!!!!!.....

What most stressing me the most was the Arabic Test. Last exam, I failed while all my friend had pass it~! Aiyooo, I'm jealous with them although actually they were cheating... (kihkihkih... I just reveal their secret,,, am I evil..? ngeee ) 

Actually, I don't like this cheating part, but they make it as it is innocent act.Ngggahh... And with me, unwillingly have to follow the situation although I hate it. I've to pretend that I'm willing with their act. I don't like it when they whispering calling me to ask while the teacher had lost his sight from the student for a moment.... Maaaa...... Why can't I stop it...?

I really have a regret for that....... Okay, maybe that's all for my post..
Jyaa nee~!

p/s: I'm really looking forward for this semester holiday.. It's two week, nyaaaaa......

Blurry

As-salam and Konnichiwa

It's been long time since I updated my entry, and now I'm back with my current mood is totally blur because I'm really  a blurry person. I'm blur about my future, my personality, my acts towards people and other blurry thing. I really have problem with myself. Hahaha.. maybe you, the people who had read my previous entry think that part of my blog all about my unsatisfied of my life. But, I'm not giving up my life, it just messed  a little (does it?, hahaha, forget it)...

And right now, another complain to remove this load from my bottom of heart .

The truth is, I can't mixed well with people even in virtual. I don't know why but I want to hide my true personality so other people can't read me then deceive me... (hahahaha... like hell my thought, but it's the truth...) my friend think that I weird (just a little) because I know they are 'weirder' than me (in some cases). Hahahaha.. All my friend actually just weird like I am. We will become a shy person in front of crowd especially Mimi, Ana, and I myself. But, I know, they must  have different reason on why they shy in front of people. If I attend some ceremony and get involved with people that I'd know, I'll become petrified and just shut myself off. Although my friends or my close family is around there just like last week when I'm attending my grandma's thanksgiving ceremony for her U'mrah. I'm the only one of the girl's sibling who was going instead of my others' sister.

*Just random picture, I've edited this picture and make it as my timeline's cover on facebook. This two are my ICHIBAN.

*not related, but I'd edited it as he's one of my Ichiban

*I've edited it for my 'big' sister... She really love both of them

When I reach the grandma's house, the presence of my relatives did make me nervous as if they want to ask me or talking with me since I'm the only girl's sibling that show up. And, it end with me, sobbing heavily in my grandma's room when the others relatives talking out there. I don't want to socialize with them because I feared for criticism, yes I admit, I FEARED FOR CRITICISM (but, it's only among the people that we known each other).... I'm  putting a thought that they'll not like me since I'm not a friendly, 'unlooking' good person and so on that can make people comfortable with me.

It goes the same at school if my friend of friend is talking each other, I'll remain silent in my place unlike my other friend like Mimi or Ana or Tihah and Tasneem, they can talking to each other's friend comfortably but sometimes, they'd said they also not comfortable talking with people who are more amazing. What the heck we are... Hahahhahahaha......

Okay, and the conclusion is,
I really can't mixed with people easily, I can't talk to them as they understand what am I trying to say. I'm a poor person on social. Hahahaa.. As you can understand what I'm tried to tell...

Then, jya ne~!
As-salam...
OYASUMI NASAI...

Change

Hi 


Today, my mood is better because i'd watched Sexy Zone video on their song like Knock! Knock! Knock! and 'I See The Light' . Their song was totally amazing. I'm amused by watching them.

Actually I'm kinda tired being a fan for my fandom.
It's not like that I hate them, but I think that most of my time is wasting for them. Maybe the part that make me feel tired for this fandom because I'd viewed too much fanbase and make me thinking them a lot. But, the reason why I become their fan because they make my heart feel excited to know, to hear, to watch and more about them.  

Ya know, everyday and every hour, I kept talking about it, about Hey! Say! JUMP and etc. When I'm blogging, or surfing internet or doing something else, I'm thinking about how they live and doing. At school too, I always imaging how they study or what they doing if they're playing or something. Did they live like a normal person or their celebrity's title differentiate their live with other. Whoahaha... I'm like their delusion stalker or shall I call it what?


I'm use to think, will someday I get bore 'biasing' them? And what will happen to them as they keep raising? Am I still their fan? Until I@them getting old? I know if my answer is 'yes' then my word that said "I'll keep support you forever!" or something like that is totally crap~! I cheat on my own word. I hate doing it. So it means, what I do and what I love to be is my seriousness. 


Maybe, I said maybe someday I am not what I think now. Like 'they' said ' People can change' . Actually I'm not even know who 'they' said that. So, why should I admit it? Oh, I know it's the mind who process it and make the mind and soul make it true. Okay, leave it! Back on the topic. I don't know what I'm saying though. It's me who love  to say random thing.


Now, I think I'd say to much that unrelated to my first aim writing this post. It's time to say 'oyasuminasai' that means


GOOD NIGHT~!

Things that keep messing

No greet , no open word, just an evil phrase that was stored in my head.

You know, there is a thousand of wires in one box, they labyrinth by themselves trying to find and connect to the right one. But, there too many wrong connection that make them stretch or something that really messing it.


I just want to take a scissor or something that can cut it really bad. Or maybe I can use an axe? Oh, it doesn't matter nah... 


How I can put it. Right now I'm really in a stress mood. My problem is I want to move school really bad. Although my current school is superb excellent for me, but my willing to move too strong that I can't receive anyone's advice to obstruct my desire. It's true that if I stay schooling at my current school will make a profit for myself, but in other hand, this make me really stress. There are too pressure that I can't bear. If I get low grade, I'll be pressed to improve my grade and they'll make anything for it and that is what I can't abide. It burden me.

Since I went to a camp that was held on my school, I lose my fun to study and it make me confuse about my future. It's so hard for me to receive it's objective. It's not that I'm a robot or something, it just me who have my own ....what can I say, okay just leave it.

Today, my counselor call me and my friends because of our grade in Arabic Language. That moment, my heart burst and said, 'don't worry teacher, I'm not gonna burden you to stay in this school, just talk to my parents that I want to move, they'll sure to consider it' ... What..? It just crossed my mind at that time. But, if I could make it.

But I wonder if I'll regret it. To many things that I'd done and I'd think if I'll regret it somedays. This thought that restive me around this age. And because of that I'd always debt my decision. And simply question that required a complex answer haunt me.


"Dou sureba? @ What should I do? Is my life walking to the right path? Or I'm just playing with  my nonsense worried?"


Because of this thought, I came to an idea, what will happen if I quit school. Ahh~!!!!!!!
Again, a ridiculous idea came up from a messing head.


Okey, full stop for this thought. Forget it!

Hari Valentine ; Wajarkah kita menyambutnya ?

As-salam~!
Entri kali ni cuma nak bagitahu fasal  Hari Valentine. Aku 'celup' post ni dari site ni . Saja nak kongsi info.



VALENTINE DAY (HARI BERKASIH SAYANG)
Menurut pandangan Islam

Benarkah ia hanya kasih sayang belaka ?
 
“Dan jika kamu menuruti kebanyakan orang-orang di muka bumi ini, nescaya mereka akan menyesatkanmu dari jalan Allah. Mereka tidak lain hanyalah mengikuti prasangka belaka, dan mereka tidak lain hanyalah berdusta (terhadap Allah).” (Surah Al-An’am : 116)
 
Hari 'kasih sayang' yang dirayakan oleh orang-orang Barat pada tahun-tahun terakhir disebut 'Valentine Day' amat popular dan merebak di pelusuk Indonesia bahkan di Malaysia juga. Lebih-lebih lagi apabila menjelangnya bulan Februari di mana banyak kita temui simbol-simbol atau  iklan-iklan tidak Islami hanya wujud untuk mempromosi Valentine. PeLbagai tempat hiburan bermula dari disko/kelab malam, hotel-hotel, organisasi-organisasi mahupun kelompok-kelompok kecil; ramai yang berlumba-lumba menawarkan acara untuk merayakan Valentine. Dengan  pengaruh media massa seperti surat kabar, radio mahupun televisyen; sebahagian besar orang Islam juga turut dihidangkan dengan iklan-iklan Valentine Day.


 SEJARAH VALENTINE:
Sungguh merupakan hal yang menyedihkan apabila telinga kita mendengar bahkan kita sendiri 'terjun' dalam perayaan Valentine tersebut tanpa mengetahui sejarah Valentine itu sendiri. Valentine sebenarnya adalah seorang martyr (dalam Islam disebut 'Syuhada') yang kerana kesalahan dan bersifat 'dermawan' maka dia diberi gelaran Saint atau Santo. 

Pada tanggal 14 Februari 270 M, St. Valentine dibunuh karena pertentangannya (pertelingkahan) dengan penguasa Romawi pada waktu itu iaitu Raja Claudius II (268 - 270 M). Untuk mengagungkan dia (St. Valentine), yang dianggap sebagai simbol ketabahan, keberanian dan kepasrahan dalam menghadapi cubaan hidup, maka para pengikutnya memperingati kematian St. Valentine sebagai 'upacara keagamaan'.
 
Tetapi sejak abad 16 M, 'upacara keagamaan' tersebut mulai beransur-ansur hilang dan berubah menjadi 'perayaan bukan keagamaan'. Hari Valentine kemudian dihubungkan dengan pesta jamuan kasih sayang bangsa Romawi kuno yang disebut “Supercalis” yang jatuh pada tanggal 15 Februari.
 
Setelah orang-orang Romawi itu masuk agama Nasrani(Kristian), pesta 'supercalis'  kemudian dikaitkan dengan upacara kematian St. Valentine. Penerimaan upacara kematian St. Valentine sebagai 'hari kasih sayang' juga dikaitkan dengan kepercayaan orang Eropah bahwa waktu 'kasih sayang' itu mulai bersemi 'bagai burung jantan dan betina' pada tanggal 14 Februari.
 
Dalam bahasa Perancis Normandia, pada abad pertengahan terdapat kata “Galentine” yang bererti 'galant atau cinta'. Persamaan bunyi antara galentine dan valentine menyebabkan orang berfikir bahawa sebaiknya para pemuda dalam mencari pasangan hidupnya pada tanggal 14 Februari. Dengan berkembangnya zaman, seorang 'martyr' bernama St. Valentino mungkin akan terus bergeser jauh pengertiannya(jauh dari erti yang sebenarnya). Manusia pada zaman sekarang tidak lagi mengetahui dengan jelas asal usul hari Valentine. Di mana pada zaman sekarang ini orang mengenal Valentine melalui greeting card, pesta persaudaraan, tukar bertukar-tukar memberi hadiah dan sebagainya tanpa ingin mengetahui latar belakang sejarahnya lebih dari 1700 tahun yang lalu.
 
Dari sini dapat diambil kesimpulan bahawa saat ini hanyalah tidak lebih bercorak kepercayaan atau animisme belaka yang berusaha merosak 'akidah' muslim dan muslimah sekaligus memperkenalkan gaya hidup barat  dengan  percintaan(bertopengkan percintaan), perjodohan dan kasih sayang.

PANDANGAN ISLAM 
Sebagai seorang muslim tanyakanlah pada diri kita sendiri, apakah kita akan mencontohi begitu saja sesuatu yang jelas bukan bersumber dari Islam ?
 
Mari kita renungkan firman Allah s.w.t.:
“ Dan janglah kamu megikuti apa yang kamu tidak mempunyai pengetahuan tentangnya. Sesungguhnya pendengaran, penglihatan, dan hati, semuanya itu akan diminta pertanggung jawabnya”. (Surah Al-Isra : 36)

Dalam Islam kata “tahu” berarti mampu mengindera(mengetahui) dengan seluruh panca indera yang dikuasai oleh hati. Pengetahuan yang sampai pada taraf mengangkat isi dan hakikat sebenarnya. Bukan hanya sekedar dapat melihat atau mendengar. Bukan pula sekadar tahu sejarah, tujuannya, apa, siapa, kapan(bila), bagaimana, dan di mana, akan tetapi lebih dari itu.
 
Oleh kerana itu Islam amat melarang kepercayaan yang membonceng(mendorong/mengikut) kepada suatu kepercayaan lain atau dalam Islam disebut Taqlid.
Hadis Rasulullah s.a.w:“ Barang siapa yang meniru atau mengikuti suatu kaum (agama) maka dia termasuk kaum (agama) itu”.
Firman Allah s.w.t. dalam Surah AL Imran (keluarga Imran) ayat 85 :“Barangsiapa yang mencari agama selain agama Islam, maka sekali-sekali tidaklah diterima (agama itu) daripadanya, dan dia di akhirat termasuk orang-orang yang rugi”.

HAL-HAL YANG HARUS DIBERI PERHATIAN:-
Dalam masalah Valentine itu perlu difahami secara mendalam terutama dari kaca mata agama kerana kehidupan kita tidak dapat lari atau lepas dari agama (Islam) sebagai pandangan hidup. Berikut ini beberapa hal yang harus difahami di dalam  masalah 'Valentine Day'.
 
1. PRINSIP / DASAR
   Valentine Day adalah suatu perayaan yang berdasarkan kepada pesta jamuan 'supercalis' bangsa Romawi kuno di mana setelah mereka masuk Agama  Nasrani (kristian), maka berubah menjadi 'acara keagamaan' yang dikaitkan dengan kematian St. Valentine.
 
2. SUMBER ASASI
   Valentine jelas-jelas bukan bersumber dari Islam, melainkan bersumber dari rekaan fikiran manusia yang diteruskan oleh pihak gereja. Oleh kerana itu lah , berpegang kepada akal rasional manusia semata-mata, tetapi jika tidak berdasarkan kepada Islam(Allah), maka ia akan tertolak.
Firman Allah swt dalam Surah Al Baqarah ayat 120 :“Orang-orang Yahudi dan Nasrani tidak akan senang kepada kamu hingga kamu mengikuti agama mereka. 
 
Katakanlah : “Sesungguhnya petunjuk Allah itulah petunjuk (yang sebenarnya)”. Dan sesungguhnya jika kamu mengikuti kemahuan  mereka setelah pengetahuan datang kepadamu, maka Allah tidak lagi menjadi pelindung dan penolong bagimu”.

3. TUJUAN
   Tujuan mencipta dan mengungkapkan rasa kasih sayang di persada bumi adalah baik. Tetapi bukan seminit untuk sehari dan sehari untuk setahun. Dan bukan pula bererti kita harus berkiblat kepada Valentine seolah-olah meninggikan ajaran lain di atas Islam. Islam diutuskan kepada umatnya dengan memerintahkan umatnya untuk berkasih sayang dan menjalinkan persaudaraan      yang abadi di bawah naungan Allah Yang Maha Pengasih dan Penyayang. Bahkan Rasulullah s.a.w. bersabda :“Tidak beriman salah seorang di antara kamu sehingga ia cinta kepada saudaranya seperti cintanya kepada diri sendiri”.
 
4. OPERASIONAL
Pada umumnya acara Valentine Day diadakan dalam bentuk pesta pora dan huru-hara.
Perhatikanlah firman Allah s.w.t.:“Sesungguhnya pemboros-pemboros itu adalah saudara-saudara syaithon dan    syaithon itu adalah sangat ingkar kepada Tuhannya”. (Surah Al Isra : 27)
Surah Al-Anfal ayat 63 yang berbunyi : “…walaupun kamu membelanjakan    semua (kekayaan) yang berada di bumi, niscaya kamu tidak dapat    mempersatukan hati mereka, akan tetapi Allah telah mempersatukan hati    mereka. Sesungguhnya Dia (Allah) Maha Perkasa lagi Maha Bijaksana”.

Sudah jelas ! Apapun alasannya, kita tidak dapat menerima kebudayaan import dari luar yang nyata-nyata bertentangan dengan keyakinan (akidah) kita. Janganlah kita mengotori akidah kita dengan dalih toleransi dan setia kawan. Kerana kalau dikata toleransi, Islamlah yang paling toleransi di dunia.
 
Sudah berapa jauhkah kita mengayunkan langkah mengelu-elukan(memuja-muja) Valentine Day ? Sudah semestinya kita menyedari sejak dini(saat ini), agar jangan sampai terperosok lebih jauh lagi. Tidak perlu kita irihati dan cemburu dengan upacara dan bentuk kasih sayang agama lain. Bukankah Allah itu Ar Rahman dan Ar Rahim.  Bukan hanya sehari untuk setahun. Dan bukan pula dibungkus dengan hawa nafsu. Tetapi yang jelas kasih sayang di dalam Islam lebih luas dari semua itu. Bahkan Islam itu merupakan 'alternatif' terakhir setelah manusia gagal dengan sistem-sistem lain.
 
Lihatlah kebangkitan Islam!!! Lihatlah kerosakan-kerosakan yang ditampilkan oleh peradaban Barat baik dalam media massa, televisyen dan sebagainya. Karena sebenarnya Barat hanya mengenali perkara atau urusan yang bersifat materi. Hati mereka kosong dan mereka bagaikan 'robot' yang bernyawa.

 
MARI ISTIQOMAH (BERPEGANG TEGUH)
Perhatikanlah Firman Allah :
“…dan sesungguhnya jika kamu mengikuti keinginan mereka setelah datang ilmu kepadamu, sesungguhnya kamu kalau begitu termasuk golongan orang-orang yang zalim”.
 
Semoga Allah memberikan kepada kita hidayahNya dan ketetapan hati untuk dapat istiqomah dengan Islam sehingga hati kita menerima kebenaran serta menjalankan ajarannya.
Tujuan dari semua itu adalah agar diri kita selalu taat sehingga dengan izin Allah s.w.t. kita dapat berjumpa dengan para Nabi baik Nabi Adam sampai Nabi Muhammad s.a.w.
Firman Allah s.w.t.:
“Barangsiapa yang taat kepada Allah dan RasulNya maka dia akan bersama orang-orang yang diberi nikmat dari golongan Nabi-Nabi, para shiddiq (benar imannya), syuhada, sholihin (orang-orang sholih), mereka itulah sebaik-baik teman”.
 
Berkata Peguam Zulkifli Nordin (peguam di Malaysia) di dalam kaset 'MURTAD' yang mafhumnya :-
"VALENTINE" adalah nama seorang paderi. Namanya Pedro St. Valentino. 14 Februari 1492 adalah hari kejatuhan Kerajaan Islam Sepanyol. Paderi ini umumkan atau isytiharkan hari tersebut sebagai hari 'kasih sayang' kerana pada nya Islam adalah ZALIM!!!  Tumbangnya Kerajaan Islam Sepanyol dirayakan sebagai Hari Valentine. Semoga Anda Semua Ambil Pengajaran!!! Jadi.. mengapa kita ingin menyambut Hari Valentine ini kerana hari itu adalah hari jatuhnya kerajaan Islam kita di Sepanyol..


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Assalamualaikum~!


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Out from Larvae

A-salam....

Now, as I'm grew bigger than I realize something that I don't know and I don't want to know as I'm child. But, growing everyday and facing the world make me realize the truth of this world. Full with unpleasant thing that I never know. And now, I know and realize the hardness of life. 

Long ago, when I was child, I thought that the out of my world was beautiful and nothing can be a big deal for adults. I thought that adults can solve anything and can protect anything. But, actually being an adult are so torturing. Although that I'm only 16 (this year !!), the adult's responsibility have I felt. So tough, and tiring. Maybe this is only a little that other 'adults' felt. Ahh... I just want to scream and tell everybody how I felt. 

Being an 'adults' also very painful that I have know and understand the circumferences. It is hurt and never make my heart at peace. But, I'm trying to ignore it and just continue my life. Although it is hard that all of it is my part of my life, but I keep trying to avoid it, because it is tone of 'adults', right ?

Now, I'm really trap in 'adults' topic because it kept break in my mind. All thing that happening to me really hooking with this 'adults' thing. Going to the status make me to think and 'blinkk' all the decision in my life although it is a small thing. It's so hard that keep pushing me. Maybe there is enjoyment thing to be an adult, but I never felt it so far. 

And, I really trying to be the BEST ADULT .... 

according to Hey! Say! BEST song(Score)

B - > Brother

E - > Easy going

S - > Smile

T - > Time

A - > Ambitious

D - > Dedication

U - > Ultra

L - > Long journey

T - > Trying hard

I wish to be it !

As-salam

PMR RESULT

As-salam

Hi,

Tomorrow, my PMR's result will be come out. Because of that, my heart beating non stop. But, I know this is not the end. My life will not ruin because of this step in my life. Eventhough, I hope that I can get an excellent result to drive me for the better future.... Hahaha.... maybe this is not the last point, but I hope that I can get it.

I'm little anxious to put a higher score coz I'm worry if the result are not achieving it. Since the exam moment, I'm always thinking for the result. 

How is it tomorrow? What will happen? 

My head was blank and I don't know what to think. Everything that I make today, it remind me for tomorrow. When I facebook'ing', the PMR RESULT's word kept 'monitoring' me. Same goes with other. Ahhhh!!!!....

It really did a pressure for me. I can't breathe well now... and I kept sighing.... 

it really BLANK BLANK BLANK BLANK me!!!

O Allah....

Keep myself always calm and always remind You....

(c)google

AMINN....

Dah Selesai . . . .

As-salam ....

Hari ni aku rasa lega sikit, sebab sebahagian dari masalah aku dah selesai... Hari ni aku dan geng aku dah buat penyelesaian dengan kawan lama kitorang dan semuanya dah tamat . . . . Aku harap lepas ni, dah takde dah semua perbalahan tu . Kitorang memang betul-betul berdamai(insyaAllah)... dan mintak-mintak lah perdamaian ni berpanjangan. Aku pun taknak cari gaduh dengan sesiapa walaupun masih ada suara-suara sumbang nak menuduh geng aku macam-macam. Yang penting geng aku dengan 'dia', dah selesai.
Aku bersyukur sangat-sangat .
 Aku rasa tu je yang aku nak tulis sekarang ni .
Dan, akhir kata puisi ni aku lahirkan dari minda dan hati ini :

Kita bertemu, berkata , dan bercerita,

Menyulam persaudaraan sebagai sahabat,

Tempat mencurahkan perasaan,

Sebagai pelengkap hidup remaja,

Kemas abadi di memori minda,

Tanpa disangka, badai melanda,

Memisahkan kita di penjuru jiwa,

Gelap dan suram mewarnai kita,

Namun akhirnya bertaut semula,

Kasih sahabat tidak ke mana,

Moga kekal abadi selamanya . . . .

Terima kasih dan Alhamdulillah . . . .