Now, as I'm grew bigger than I realize something that I don't know and I don't want to know as I'm child. But, growing everyday and facing the world make me realize the truth of this world. Full with unpleasant thing that I never know. And now, I know and realize the hardness of life.
Long ago, when I was child, I thought that the out of my world was beautiful and nothing can be a big deal for adults. I thought that adults can solve anything and can protect anything. But, actually being an adult are so torturing. Although that I'm only 16 (this year !!), the adult's responsibility have I felt. So tough, and tiring. Maybe this is only a little that other 'adults' felt. Ahh... I just want to scream and tell everybody how I felt.
Being an 'adults' also very painful that I have know and understand the circumferences. It is hurt and never make my heart at peace. But, I'm trying to ignore it and just continue my life. Although it is hard that all of it is my part of my life, but I keep trying to avoid it, because it is tone of 'adults', right ?
Now, I'm really trap in 'adults' topic because it kept break in my mind. All thing that happening to me really hooking with this 'adults' thing. Going to the status make me to think and 'blinkk' all the decision in my life although it is a small thing. It's so hard that keep pushing me. Maybe there is enjoyment thing to be an adult, but I never felt it so far.
And, I really trying to be the BEST ADULT ....
according to Hey! Say! BEST song(Score)
B - > Brother
E - > Easy going
S - > Smile
T - > Time
A - > Ambitious
D - > Dedication
U - > Ultra
L - > Long journey
T - > Trying hard
I wish to be it !
As-salam
