Another posting from me. Hahaha... Lately, I've been into dramas very much since my assignment hampir habis and get ready to exam actually. But, since I got this opportunity very rarely, masa dihabiskan dengan layan movie and drama. Tapi, kebanyakan drama banyak buat aku berfikir although sometimes it is not related with anything and booomm... i came to a new philosophy. Maybe thats how introvert person viewing things. I'm good with analogy anyway. And to my conscious, I have changed a little, in a good sense maybe. Like I'm not to pious like before. Hahah.. not that I'm that alim, but now I became more daring or like to step a little on barrier. macam melanggar peraturan? no, macam tak terlalu mengikut peraturan. I rather be casual and flexible. like things can be adjust ma.
Those perenggan kat atas actually define me very well, like how I can jump to a new topic very fast. This way, people always have a hard time to understand me. Cause I'm easy to be distracted. muncul topik baru, and I forget the old one. this kind of sikap make me bored easily and also easily excited. cepat panas and cepat sejuk. i got to many of interest and then i forget the old one. peribahasa melayu kata, "hangat-hangat tahi ayam". contohnya, minat menjahit. then i will be sewing in every my leisure time like make a sling bag, purse, sarung bantal and so on, and after a while, i lost interest in it. then, another minat come out. but then, my old interest will come around again and for a meant time, i will be devoted to it until another interest caught me again. it had been that way for a long time. that's how I am, unfortunately. hope my relationship with people will be longlasting at least.
oh, my thing about melanggar sedikit peraturan, contohnya waktu curfew weekdays sampai pukul 7, then i dont mind getting back at 8 or 9. though there's a little penalty but i dare to break the rules coz i've got a little kepercayaan or keyakinan ke atas sesuatu like i've gone many things that went badly so this will not be any different. and, "bukan selalu buat macam ni."- like. haha, there's this thrilled feeling that excites me. like going into an adventures. for an introvert like me, this is very arousing.
oh, another point in this posting title. i've been watching korean drama which were before this i'm kind of anti with korean thing, but then, i try to watch them to challenge myself, like "hmmm, sebelum ni ngkau anti sangat ngan korea kan, nah try tengok dulu, takut nanti tersuka pulak..."hhahaha.. this kind of monologue always occur in myself like another me also exist which always challenge me to do something new or debating with me over some issues. then, i watched sampai beberapa drama. and my thought was, "hmm.. not bad." because i could understand how people think or why people act in any way along with the culture. watching drama actually just like reading a book, you want to know how things happen or the new information or learn about people. that's how drama are to me. it helps me psychologically. same goes to japan drama. the reason why i love it a lot because they create something that we never think could happen, or they show things that i'm always thinking. how they show their principles or how things should be done correctly (in their way of course) and how their world revolve. i just like that.
the me, (haha) also keep distracted with people around me. they really made me or molding me? like who i am are who am i spending time with. although i have my own core that cannot be change by anyone. i'm on an act with them. but i dont find that awkward because that how society are. we change our attitude based on who we deal with. not everyone receive the same layanan from us. or not in front of everyone we act the same. this is not arrogant words, just stating things that we are doing.
me who keeps talking random will stop talking for now. bye.
