So, here come the new semester and BOOMM!! Practicum is
around the corner. So, since the last semester, I’m having these endless
nightmares about the practicum and sound kind of clue or sign of something
unfortunate. And I can feel the tense are piling and it crashed my heart.
So today, I got chance to visit the school and thank God,
the journey wasn’t very bad. Just 4 traffic lights with not-so-busy road. Okay,
not bad. And it only took 15-20 minutes
to reach there. Thankfully, the school are in suburban area with only less
number of pupils compared to the schools that I used to visit in my PBS / SBE.
Special Education’s pupils also are the least compared to my previous school and
this facts at least had ease my feeling… a bit.
But the fact that my lect in charge for this practicum had
risen my stress into some level that the nightmares disturb my eating and
sleeping habit. Also, the facts that I’ve been surrounded by outstanding
teacher-trainees and excellent lecturer makes it look very hard to go through
this. It’s like I’m being burdened with a high expectations and it had lowered
my self esteem.
