Last Day in 2013

Assalamualaikum~ Hai....
Hari ni hari last dalam tahun ni kalau iku kalendar Masihi. So, typically for me to say, Happy New Year
 and may all of us can start our day with more determination  in accomplishing things that what we aim.

Yay *tetibe*
Aku dah takkan pegi sekolah tahun depan. Emmm.. sedih la jugak sikit-sikit kan....
 No more school days. Those memory that I'll miss in this life. Alamak... and hari ni jugak is my birthday. Yay~! Alhamdulillah ya Rabb.... He is the Most Powerful and Most Loving to all the creature.

Actually, sekarang ni aku tengah cuba untuk keep in distance dengan schoolmates@friends sejak cuti ni.
 Aku dah deactivate fb dan tukar url blog ni. Kad sim pun aku cabut dari henset tu. Rasanya aku takkan balas mesej diorang. Hmm

Emm... sekarang ni nak cari kerja je dulu. Boring sangat2 duduk kat rumah untuk 5+ bulan  ni. Hmm,, apasal la result SPM ni paling lambat keluar hah?...Huhu

It's way too boring now~!!!!
Okay, dah cukuplah nak komplen..Hihi
Jyaa, assalamualaikum 

Day END of SPM

Assalamualaikum~
Okay, look at the title. Yeah, I'm free ! Alhamdulillah semalam tepat pukul 12:30 p.m last paper, BA dah tamat. Lega sangat sangat. Tapi kan, walaupun rasa lega tapi macam ada something je yang tak kena.

Aku rasa macam sedih je. Maybe sebab sekolah dah tamat and tahun depan, aku dah tak berada di sini lagi and tak bersama kawan-kawan. Tapi bila aku fikir balik, aku rasa bukan sebab tu. Kebelakangan ni aku rasa pelik + sedih. I felt like I'm being left out by people around me. And sometimes I feel like they deceiving me. Befriended or keep close to me just because some advantages that they can get.

And I felt it yesterday. At the last annual party. I was left alone, maybe because I'm not attractive as them. I know that they are the hotties and I'm just an outcast that only needed in some situation, like in studying. Well, befriended with the hotties sure are painful, sometimes. But in a party where people could make up themselves, I'm an ugly duckling. N.I.P = Not Important Person.

Because of this, aku selalu remind kat diri supaya jangan berkongsi hal diri kat orang yang tak sudi nak ambil berat pada kita cause nobody care about us unless they could get some benefit from us.----- By family, friends.......... And at this point, I do wonder what is 'friend' actually. Are we friend? Or do we actually related by bond?

I've put too much concern on them but sometimes I demand the concern from them too. But, maybe I'm really an N.I.P to them.

Okay, that was when they didn't really care about me -----------------------------------------------

But, when they just show their smile to me, I'm delighted and my emotion was revived. I feel like they always going to be my friend who I can share my feeling. Though the person really create the painful feeling for me but when they talk or curving a nice smile to me, the sorrowful in my heart were erased. I forget the pain and my heart was opened again for them.

For this reason I know, I'll keep be deceived by people but for this reason too, I can't step forward in my life.

Nothing good for me, I thought .......

SPM now

Okey, Assalamualaikum.
 Nampak tak tajuk kat atas?

I'm in the period of the exam!

Sekarang ni, 5 paper dah lepas. Lagi 6 subjek je. Insya-Allah  berkat doa guru, ibu bapa dan orang yang sayangi saya, 11A will be MINE.

Yosh, rasa dah cukup kot setakat ni. Got to study for three subjects for this week.
Though it's killing me right now :-')

#Sabar itu susah, namun mawaddahnya mudah, ^,^

Onegaishimasu~

Salam Syawal dan salam Kemerdekaan..

Sekarang ni masih sibuk wo, ada 3 subjek lagi nak kena handle.
Lepas habis percubaan ni pun aku tak boleh nak main-main dah. SPM is just less than two months to step in my life.
Subjek yang tak habis lagi untuk trial ni ialah EA, PQS , dan PSI.

Right now I'm having my crucial time. I've got to focus on this exam. But in the same time I always trying to change myself to a better person.
But I'm always doing a wrong thing on my way to get His maghfirah.

O Allah, please guide me because I'm just Your servant who are really weak in handling things in my life.

To you readers, *as if I have one* pray for my success ne~
Until then, jyaa~ Assalamualaikum ^_^

Salam Aidilfitri

Assalamualaikum~

Salam Aidilfitri buat semua ^_^ 

Penat sangat beraya time nak exam ni (walaupun keje sekolah kebanyakannya tak siap lagi) and study..... ughhh rasa sedih la jugak..

Tiap-tiap tahun mesti segenap saudara mara kami ziarah. Al-maklumlah, saudara mara ramai sangat. Dahla rombongan ziarah dah macam rombongan orang kenduri kawin sampai lima, enam buah kereta. Tapi memang seronok la bila jumpa saudara mara yang setahun sekali ni je boleh berkumpul ramai-ramai. Itulah hikmahnya Syawal ye tak?

Syukur Alhamdulillah Allah kurniakan bulan ini kepada kita. In Sha Allah tahun depan, semuanya akan meningkat lebih baik. Aminn..

Okeylah, itu je nak 'royat/ghoyat' . Until then, see you soon.
Assalamualaikum ^_^

 p/s : Doakan trial ku kali ini akan lebih cemerlang, Aminn~

Catatan di Ramadhan

Assalamualaikum dan Salam Ramadhan/ Nuzul Al-Quran ~

Lama betul aku tak update blog ni. Actually sibuk sangat kan. Trial for SPM pun tak lama dah. Aku start trial bulan 8 ni, bukak-bukak je skolah lepas raya. dah kena hadap paper trial. InsyaAllah di bulan Ramadhan yang penuh berkat ni, aku dapat khatam dan mahir every subject , InsyaAllah, aminn~

Sekarang bulan Ramadhan pun dah masuk fasa ke-. Fasa keampunan. Kita dah pun melepasi fasa pertama iaitu 10 hari pertama merupakan fasa kerahmatan. And now, we're being in the second one for 10 hari ke-2. And 10 hari terakhir ialah fasa ke- iaitu kemerdekaan. Aku harap aku boleh lalui Ramadhan kali ni dengan penuh ikhlas.

Hari ni sebenarnya aku terpaksa balik sekolah lewat sikit sebab terpaksa *eceh, terpaksa*. Yalah, terpaksa siapkan poster untuk Ramadhan. Actually, aku taknak tapi dah diorang suruh and terpaksalah aku buat jugak. Hmm, mula-mula tu memang rasa troubled sangat, tapi bila aku dah buat, emm,,, rasa seronok la jugak.

Tapi kan... aku agak sedih dengan diri sendiri. I felt so pathetic. Sebab aku tak boleh nak keluarkan pandangan aku sendiri, What I did was the things people want to. Aku buat sesuatu bukan sebab diri sendiri. Walaupun aku ada idea tapi aku takut untuk suarakan. Aku takut kalau apa yang aku fikir dan apa yang aku mahu, adalah sesuatu yang tak perlu atau salah .

Sebab tu lah, waktu suarakan pandangan aku akan perlahankan suara cause I lack of confidence ! I can't say my right ! Kadang-kadang aku rasa yang diri ni memang hopeless sangat-sangat. Aku harap yang suatu hari nanti aku akan lebih tabah dan yakin diri dan boleh jadi tempat pergantungan bagi orang lain. InsyaAllah ~

Then, esok aku ada rancangan dengan Ana, my dearly friend yang kita akan buat study group walaupun sebenarnya cuma kita 2 orang je . Though semua orang cuti and dah balik rumah, kami memang suka datang sekolah time takde orang. Rasa tenang je and waktu ni lah, kami akan kuasai kelas. Hoho, takde sape kat kelas & sekolah. Even budak asrama dah balik.

Dearly Ana

Hope tahun ni akan jadi tahun yang terbaik untuk aku mempositifkan nilai diri ini. I want to be a daughter of my parents that they can be thankful to ALLAH for having me.

Okei, Assalamualaikum~

Pic spam

Assalamualaikum~

Konnichiwa ~ It's a good day right. And of course I want to enjoy it with spamming a little number of picture . Yeah, a picture hold a thousand words describing the one-stop-moment  

And here it is~

 THIS IS NOT AN ABUSE.... though 

"Don't stare at me like that "

a serene   afternoon ?

walk you, penguin

"I know I'm at fault"

a morning at a seashore

Yeah! That's it.
End of pic spam~

Bye! Have a good day
Assalamualaikum