Butterflies in My Stomach

Hi. Here I appear again. How are you today? Hehe

Ya know, yesterday, my heart had goes too many of 'doki-doki' and kind of bursting because yesterday, too many things happen. All the occasions make my heart jump too many times and my head was all unorganized because all of the things that happen were kind of unexpected and too rushing.

Fisrtly, I had my English classes and we'd done many activies and all of them were so fun that I'm become excited all over. Then, before I could realize, I had to do my presentation for my Special Ed subject (cause the mark will be added to my coursework) so I had this butterflies in my stomach, anxiously, ya know with my hands and feet went freezing and my heart pounds loudly which make me unable to calm myself. I felt that time like my heart almost burst and I'm afraid that I'll act uncontrollable...hhehe

Fortunately I was able to finish it smoothly (I think). My lecturer however won't tell us (since I do it with my partner) our mark (because for previous partners, he would told them). I hope it's all okay (since it will affect my pointer). Hahahha.. so I do care about my pointer.

Then, when I get to know from the PA of other subject (related to Special Ed too), that the lecturer want us to present our pet this Thursday, we all became so nervous and start to fussing around on a planning to buy our pet since many of us still don't have our own pet to get presented.

Then, while I'm waiting at the cafeteria for my other friends to go buying fish (as we decided to pet fish, since it's the most easy pet to take care of, at least until the day of presentation. XD), I had received an email on my application for a monitor tour to Chiba prefecture. It said that I was able to proceed to the next level which is the interview. Woahhhh....

I'm so happy that I could hug anyone (my only mahram, of course).... Although it is just an interview, too me it is the big accomplishment for myself since I did not accomplish anything in the past semester (I mean something meaningful like this, heee *too me, it's so meaningful, kayhh).

When, all of things didn't settle yet in my mind (I couldn't replied to it at that time), I was in a hurry to buy fishes with my other friends @ classmates.

Then, at the pet shop, I was again in a bustle, finding fish and all the accsesories plus my other friends who didn't went along the pet shop ask me  to do that errands too. It was really chaotic yesterday that I think the shoppers must be really confused and started to think that all of us are mad about fishes. Hahaha.. When all of them are settled already, we went back to our hostel and start to take a good care (I think XD) of our new pet. Signing in to all of my SNS, I saw them and me also posting about our new pet. It is a jubilant when all of my classmates have all of this pet and we start to share so many information and tips on taking a good care to our pet.

Then, last night, I was being able to reply the email regarding on the interview. Woahh... this is really exciting day, I thought. Too many things happen. When wo look outside, all of this things are all natural and not an uncommon things to be happen in our life, but for me to go through it, it had surely maximated my control of mind, heart and body. Means my physical, mental and emotion. Hahahaha.. now I'm growing.. XD

Kay.. that's all.
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Assalamualaikum.


I think I'm rarely have times nowadays as I grew up I realize I have to many things to do in this age. Looking back past this time, I think I had enough play times and always living in my world by not looking around and look things on different perspectives. I'd reviewed all my blog post in the past and I found them too embarrassing to be read because it's so immature. Hahahaha... just look in what ages I wrote that. If I have a time machine, I want to return to that time when I post that writing, a piece of advice and a quick smack on my 'young-head' would do.

Now I understand what I learn in class this days about human development (child-teen-adult). I can see the differences of my ways of communication, writing, how I develop my ideas and my thinking's pattern. It's all in an appropriate order. Though I'm really embarrassing with my old way of mine that I want to slap my face really hard, still I will not delete it cause in the future I can look back like this and say to myself, "I have come all this way to become like this." Somehow, it's kind of things that I hope I can say happily. Happy that maybe things would not go as I want, still I can look it in other viewpoint, realizing that life have got many tricks to tease us.

And oh. I'd already change this blog's name after almost two years using "Secondary Child" as a blog title. It is that I'm in my way on self-upgrading. I use "Secondary Child" before because I think that I'm a child in all the ways of my life with a little different from real child. But now, I use "Voikukka" which means 'Dandelion' in Finnish, to describe myself as I'm in a journey, leaving my old self (read it in a term of 'improving') to reach some achievement in my life, at least for people around me, family, etc.

Really, I think I have too many aspects of myself (first) that need to be improved before I can step out to enter other people's world. Thereto, on the way of engaging myself with this profession (a-teacher-to-be I hope), something must be done about me first. Okay, that's my point.

So, overall, I think this is a good pace for me to start.
Kay. Bye. WAssalamualaikum.