Rant

So, it's already 0104 and I can't put myself to sleep again. It had become my habit to sleep at this late since this semester. The earliest hour that I go to bed usually at 0000. But my daily life aren't productive as ever though. I am thinking for a change. Change in lifestyle, to renew daily and life goals and try to fulfill it as this is my prime time in my life where I've been blessed with energy, chances, family, friends, and other things that can't be certain in lifetime ahead. This countless blessing that I've been bestowed by Him need to be grateful. Hm.. I'm leading my now-life aware of this yet no action has been taken to show Him my gratefulness.

I've tried my best every night before going to sleep to plan my tomorrow life productively or beneficial to me and others yet my imagination has courted me to another situation that is ridiculously could be happen in life. Such dramatically and unrealistically scenes and circumstances that cause me to forget my to do list and other responsibilities and duties I had to make for the next day. Actually, every day's scenes in my life bear a big nor little scope of imagination that can turn me a little excited inside whether it could result for unpleasant or rejoice feels. That sometimes it had draws me to talk discreetly (read: comments) about it, all by myself. Me talking alone (hushedly) is one of my characters. It also had resulted me to overthink about sometime and made a fuss for it ....by myself.

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Actually, my smartphone has gone out of service and I had to use my old phone (act it was my sisters') that cant be used to access Internet. Only call and message. But, thanks to that I can focused more on my study, though. Hahahaha... at least my temptation to run away from this study's duty had lessen. But the disadvantages is I can't contact my Umie often and can't shared my daily routine report to my family group XD. hahahaa... anyway, I tried to take it in a positive way and try to make some benefit from it.

And also, my lapptop has been acting very ill lately. The problem has worsen. Before this it will only go into sleep mode and can be revived after a while, but now, it would shut down not long after it went to the sleep mode. Allah knew best if this isnt in my assignments weeks, I must go not far from crazy to fix this things up. I've been holding up this problem for so long for many excuses I'd made for I can't be parted from this electronic things for I thought I may have some needs to be done from it.

But I think it is my personality that had caused all of this things. Same goes to my dental record and my health progress. I cant seem to act immediately if it hasnt caused me some drastic awfully change that interrupt my routine.

Oh.. how I hope I can change this rotten personality..

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Now, my nearest determination instead of study for next papers is writing some good stories or sketching ideas for a few scenes to be put into the story, at least.

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Maybe it's time for me to sleep, hmmm.. seriously.

Anyway, I've done my TMKS3053 paper today, and I thought 'Oh..poor'
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Night .